Each day is a new day that’s what I have to tell myself! I have been struggling the last few weeks with increasing depression and the need to have some control over my life and recovery.
In my distorted thoughts I am not sure why this road to recovery is taking so long. That said I have learned many lessons from my readings of the Amish Life. They seem to have a much better understanding of life’s trials and tribulations. They are not of the same mindset we seem to be in English Society that is one of INSTANT gratification! I have been dealing with the fact that I am not able to go to work and that has been my goal since the accident. I had thought I would be back to work by December of 2010, 3 months after the accident. Little did I know I would not even be walking by that point! Then I was sure by Spring 2011 once again little did I know I would be just learning to walk again. Move forward with goals constantly being set for my return to work till the present and I am trying to come to terms with the fact that I will get back to work when I am ready and not before then and when that is only our Heavenly Father above knows. I am learning to put all my trust in him and he will guide me in the direction of which my life is meant to go!